God’s Creation Boundary

He marks out the horizon on the face of the waters for a boundary between light and darkness. Job 26:10 NIV

In the beginning, God established the fundamental order of the world, including boundaries for the oceans and the cycle of day and night. He has ultimate authority over all creation. God’s ongoing governance of time and space shows His power and wisdom to bring order to the world.

In contrast, humans have very limited understanding of His creation. We are not in control. So, the marked-out horizon is also a boundary between God and us. God is God; we humans are not. And like Job, we are called to humility in the face of suffering, for God’s purposes are beyond our comprehension.

We cannot hear this message enough, because the first commandment is the one we most often break. Time and again, we act as if He did not matter and as if we mattered most. Forgive me Lord!

A Property Boundary

Do not move an ancient boundary stone or encroach on the fields of the fatherless, Proverbs 23:10 NIV

Entering a new school year challenges children and adults to treat one another with fairness. Love your neighbor as yourself, and that means, don’t cheat or steal, especially from the vulnerable. Respect metaphorical boundaries by not encroaching on or claiming others’ designated time, attention, or property. Literally, as in the Old Testament warning in Proverbs 23:10, not moving the large stones that mark where your field ends and someone else’s begins. Relationally, not stealing the limelight from others, especially from those who are easy targets for greedy, attention-seeking people—children and adults alike. 

God defends the weak. Jesus’s beatitudes in the New Testament make this abundantly clear: God’s favor, protection, and kingdom belong to the humble, suffering, and marginalized. In school and life, this means not cheating the weak out of their opportunity to learn, make friends, and serve in peaceful community. 

Or as the saying goes, stay in your God-given lane, that’s His boundary.

A Weather Boundary

The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance. Psalm 16:6 NIV

This past weekend, a cool front came across the eastern part of the United States, moving in the typical pattern from northwest to southeast. On the weather map, a blue line with triangles swept away temperatures in red. Cool, dry air replaced last week’s heat and humidity.

Weather fronts, classified as cold or warm (also stationary or occluded), are transition zones between contrasting air masses. Cold fronts usually bring clear skies, a change in wind direction, and cooler temperatures but are often associated with violent weather, which some areas experienced. But now we’re enjoying absolutely beautiful Labor Day weather.

Psalm 16:6 reveals three related metaphors of wisdom. The first is similar to boundaries lines previously noted, our literal and metaphorical property assignments. Here the psalmist, likely King David, sees his God-given placement and declares it “pleasant,” good, despite the trials of life—the second bit of metaphorical wisdom. And third, choosing God as our Lord and Savior is the ultimate blessing, our most delightful inheritance. 

These boundary lines— creational, relational, and natural—have fallen for us in pleasant places.

Happy Labor Day.

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In a biblical sense, “here I am” is also good spiritual practice, one that took me years to discover.

“Here I am, Lord, Is it I, Lord?”

Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord? I have heard you calling in the night. I will go, Lord, if you lead me, I will hold your people in my heart. “Here I Am, Lord” by Dan Schutte Chorus

For thirty years, while teaching at Catholic Girls College Preparatory Schools, I sang “Here I Am, Lord” during Mass without knowing anything about the song. Come to find out, Dan Schutte wrote it for a friend’s ordination, using the stories of God’s calls to Samuel and Isaiah. The verses in Schutte’s song are from the point of view of God, who looks at our troubled world and asks whom He should send to help. The chorus that the congregation sings is their answer to God’s question: “Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?” The words sung outwardly did not enter my deaf mind.

In time—God’s time—I would hear those words and ask the same question: “Is it I, Lord?”

Samuel answered, “Here I am.”

Then the Lord called Samuel. Samuel answered, “Here I am.” 1 Samuel 3:4 NIV

I always find Samuel’s story a bit humorous, maybe because I recognize the misunderstanding. Initially, this verse seems straight forward: God calls, Samuel answers. Except the young boy Samuel thinks the voice belongs to Eli, the elderly high priest who Samuel serves. So, he runs to Eli and says, “You called me,” and Eli replies, “No, I didn’t, go back to bed.”

Then God calls Samuel again, and Samuel runs to Eli again, and Eli says again, “I did not call, go back to bed.” I can almost hear Eli’s exasperation at this point, can’t you? 

But God calls a third time. Samuel runs to Eli, who finally realizes what’s happening. God is calling Samuel! So, Eli tells him to go back to bed, but if he hears the call again, say, “Speak, LORD, for your servant is listening.” And that’s what happened: the beginning of Samuel’s prophetic calling. 

I’d like to think my response to God’s call—when I finally listened—was like Mary in her Magnificat: “My soul magnifies the Lord.” But frankly, I was more like Samuel, obedient but clueless as to Whom I really served. Or like Moses: “Here I am, but are You sure it’s me You want? No one will believe a former atheist, and I’m not good at this. Please send someone else.”

And God’s response to Moses and to us? “I will be with you.” The ultimate reassurance.

“Here I am. Send me.”

Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me!” Isaiah 6:8 NIV

The book of Isaiah has some of most beautiful, prophetic verses in the Old Testament, and Isaiah 6:8 is one of them. This verse captures the moment when Isaiah, seeing a vision of God and being forgiven of sins and made ready, hears the voice of God and offers himself to His service: “Here am I. Send me!”

Unlike God’s called prophets, we ordinary servants say, “Here I am,” then ask, “Is it I, Lord?” The ‘yes’ is what I experience while reading His Word in church. Or playing flute with the worship team. Or serving on the Women’s Ministry Team. Or helping my neighbors and praying for others. Good spiritual practice.

I cannot reverse my past disobedience—deafness, cluelessness, hesitation—but I can listen, trust, and boldly answer His gracious call.

“Here, Carole! Come!”

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Five people, four generations, two in the first half of life, three in the second half. The last picture I have of my mother, with me, my daughter, granddaughter, and elder sister. Christmas 2019. Six weeks later, Mother passed away at the age of 96.

…for dust you are and to dust you will return. Genesis 3:19b NIV

So, states scripture. But “…we inhabit a world that is dead set on living in a false story of aging—one that values, at most, only the first half of life but does not value its second half…” writes Jen Wilkin in Dust to Dust: Aging Wisely in an Anti-Aging World. To tell the true story of aging, Wilkin presents a model for life as a chiasm, a literary or rhetorical device where concepts or words are repeated in reverse order: A, B, C, D, E, D, C, B, A, in Wilkin’s chiasm.

Here is her model for the Chiasm of Life:

A. Birth: After labor, a first inhale

B. First Years: Completely dependent on the care of others

C. Adolescence: Increasing independence

D. Early Adulthood: Caregiving (children)

E. Midlife: The place of perspective

D. Late Midlife: Caregiving (parents)

C. Senior Adulthood: Decreasing independence

B. Final Years: Completely dependent on the care of others

A. Death: After labor, a final exhale

Visually, a chiasm looks like the Greek letter Chi, an X, and the midpoint, in this case between life’s first and second half, contains the main message. Wilkin: “As we step our way from the edges of life’s chiasm to the center, we’ll find that the relationship between the first half and the second half is not identical parallelism but same-but-different…” In the photograph, my granddaughter is in her first years, and my adult daughter is caregiving her. My sister and I are caregiving our mother who is in her final days. Five people, four stages of the chiasm.

First and Second Half birth-death and dependence 

“The bodily decline of the second half of life chips away incrementally at a significant element of the world’s false story about aging: the myth that weakness is outgrown in adulthood, never to be returned to.” Jen Wilkin in Dust to Dust: Aging Wisely in an Anti-Aging World.

The juxtaposition of death and birth happen all the time. For instance, my granddaughter was born less than three years before my mother died. While my granddaughter grew out of complete dependence on others—she’d learned to walk and talk and feed herself—my mother slowly grew into dependence. Weakness returned. Same-but-different. That’s the reality of aging.

And so, Lord, Teach us to number our days… Psalm 90:12a NIV.

First and Second Half increases and decreases

“As a young mom, I hung on [my mother’s] every word about parenting. I think I naively thought I wouldn’t need her help once I got past the first half of life, but her wisdom has only deepened and grown more precious to me with the passage of time.” Jen Wilkin in Dust to Dust: Aging Wisely in an Anti-Aging World.

As my children entered adolescence, I increased their opportunities to become independent. They learned to drive, got jobs, and did chores around the house like adults. By the time they went to college, I felt confident that they could take care of themselves. And who was on the other end of the phone when I needed advice during the parentings years? My mother. 

But while my children’s independence increased, my father’s decreased—and my mother’s caregiving entered a second phase. Same-different. My father’s first life-threatening illness happened when he was in his early 50s. Eleven years later, he has a massive right brain stroke, which left him dependent on my mother and other caregivers. My sisters and I visited and helped as often and as much as we could. My children were sixteen and thirteen when their grandfather died, ten years after his stroke. We stood graveside and paid our respects, as we would to my mother twenty-four years later.

Stand up in the presence of the aged, show respect for the elderly… Leviticus 19:32a NIV

First and Second Half caregiving and midlife hinge

“The chiasm of life expressed in terms of physical and mental abilities and responsibilities splits neatly in half at midlife, with all gains in the first half and all parallel losses the second half. But this is not to say that the second half of life is all loss. Quite the opposite.” Jen Wilkin in Dust to Dust: Aging Wisely in an Anti-Aging World.

I was in my forties during my children’s adolescence—sandwiched with my father’s senior adulthood and final years—and entered menopause before they became young adults. Same-different. What can I say about menopause? Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting… Proverbs 31:30a NIV

Wilkin: “Midlife forms the center of our chiasm, age forty to fifty-five…” For me, several first-to-second-half-of-life transitions happened during those hinge years: In my early forties, I gave up atheism after my first marriage failed; in my fifties, I remarried and built a house with my new husband—both literally and figuratively. Soon after we relocated and launched new careers, and I experienced a totally unexpected shift of perspective, a “falling upward” spiritual journey. 

On Friday, Keith and I will celebrate my birthday: seventy-five years to his seventy-nine. Does not long life bring understanding?Job 12:12b NIV Yes, indeed, or as Wilkin states: “Those older than us are not still valuable. They are, rather, increasingly valuable.”Keith and I trust that is so, as the two of us are quite active, especially in our careers as writers and in church. We’re still growing in wisdom and still independent, though we know the latter will change, either gradually or suddenly. Our parents have breathed their last; we will be next.

Senior Adulthood: Decreasing independence. 

Final Years: Completely dependent on the care of others.

Death: After labor, a final exhale.

The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised. Job 1:21b NIV

Amen.

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My knee-jerk reactions to hard passages, such as this, tell me to look closer. Because Jesus is God and without sin; He does His Father’s will perfectly. So, if He came only for the Jews, why is He in Canaan with His disciples? To show that God’s plan includes gentiles, to show the woman’s faith as a model, and most of all, to show God’s mercy, the crumbs of which no one deserves.

We all experience disruptions in life, some understandable, some inexplicable; we all have times when we’ve desperately sought grace and mercy—peace. But to understand scripture, we need to ask: Who’s the disruptive “I” about to disrupt what and why? 

Jesus’s Disrupt

Do you think I came to smooth things over and make everything nice? Not so. I’ve come to disrupt and confront! Luke 12:51 MSG

The Who in Luke 12:51 is Jesus, and the what He’s about to disrupt is the world. This disruption causes each one of us to choose: either accept His message, His lordship, or reject Him. The decision separates believers from non-believers. 

This is another difficult passage because it creates uncomfortable friction, division, and hostility. Freezing cold and polarization especially within families. Heartbreaking splits between parents and children. I dare say, we all experience disturbing disruptions in this world. But take heart—the result in His Kingdom is peace, the ultimate what and why.

God’s Disrupt

He also told me, “Son of Man, look! I’m about to disrupt the source of bread in Jerusalem. As a result, they’ll ration bread by weight while their terror continues to grow and they’ll ration drinking water while their horror continues to mount! Ezekiel 4:16 ISV

The Who is this passage from the prophet Ezekiel is God, and the “what” is that He’s about to disrupt is the food and water supply in Jerusalem. Famine is coming due to the military siege. The people of Jerusalem are told to impose strict rationing by weight and measure, indicators of severe scarcity. Sips and small bites just to survive. A hard verse to read yet straight forward. 

Fear and horror. Why? Because of God’s judgment. The people turned away from Him by continually breaking His covenant. God only tolerates so much disobedience and then He passes judgment. This is what we deserve, but also an opportunity for us to confront our sin, turn back to Him, and cry for mercy, as the Canaanite woman did.

Women Disrupt

Wives must not disrupt worship, talking when they should be listening, asking questions that could more appropriately be asked of their husbands at home. 1 Corinthians 14:34-35a MSG

1 Corinthians 14:34–35 causes another big knee-jerk reaction, which tells me to look closer. Paul states that women—the who—should not disrupt worship—the what—but remain silent and later, if they have questions, ask their husbands. Note that first-century women did not receive an education or formal training and were unlikely to understand the what of worship. Thus, their questions. Some interpret these verses as a mandate for female submission—the ouch—while others view this passage in the context of Chapter 14, Paul’s focus on orderly worship. And since Paul regularly collaborated with women in his ministry, the female submission interpretation alone doesn’t make sense, at least not to me. Either way, it’s encouragement for me as a woman to think before I speak. 

In preparation for this coming year’s Women Ministry Bible studies and Retreat, I’ve been reading a great deal about feminism and Christian women, most recently, True Woman 201: Interior Design – Ten Elements of Biblical Womanhood by Mary Kassian and Nancy DeMoss. They assert that speech plays a major role in reverence. Again, the Canaanite woman’s respectful address and persistent request, which Jesus recognized as her faith. This is submission to Him, humility and benevolence, behavior that both women and men should exhibit. Quite different from disruptive, chaotic shouting. But sometimes it’s important to disrupt and confront, as Jesus and the Canaanite woman did, and it’s always important to listen to the prophets and to my husband, to remain silent and not interrupt.

So, today and every day, I pray for discernment. The who, what and why kind of discernment. 

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Shift as Protection

So the Lord shifted the wind to a very strong west wind, which picked up the locusts and drove them into the Red Sea; not one locust was left in all the territory of Egypt. Exodus 10:19 NASB

This story about the end of the Eighth Plague in Egypt—after Pharaoh begged Moses, and Moses prayed for the locusts’ removal—is a good example of how God answers prayers for protection. Yet, Pharaoh’s heart would again harden against the Israelites. Our memory of blessings can be short, even about disasters averted.

But my Uncle Leon never forgot God’s protection on one particular day when he was a teenager, growing up in northern Maine. On a dynamite job for his father, my uncle discovered the foreman had set far too much dynamite, and there was nothing anyone could do to change that. So, they lit the fuse and ran for cover. The blast shook the earth. While examining the impact after the dust had cleared, Uncle Leon heard a whistling sound from above. A huge rock from the blast landed right next to him. 

I’ve had plenty of close calls that I know about, though not as dramatic as Uncle Leon’s, and I’ll bet you have, too. Only God knows how many times He’s shifted to protect us. But the biggest protection shift we can experience is this belief, an unshifting, metaphorical boulder from on high: Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. James 1:17 NIV

Shift as Faith Test

if you continue in your faith, established and firm, and do not move from the hope held out in the gospel. This is the gospel that you heard and that has been proclaimed to every creature under heaven, and of which I, Paul, have become a servant. Colossians 1:23 NIV

In Colossians 1:23, Paul encourages us to stay strong in our faith, to not shift away from the good news that is for everyone in the world. Including you and me.

Have you ever given testimony in a court of law? I did thirty-four years ago when the judge in my divorce case asked me to state my name (Carole Duff), whether I had minor children (I did), the legal grounds for divorce (irreconcilable differences), about property division (50-50), child custody (full custody for me), and child support. My lawyer showed evidence of our agreements. 

Standing in front of the judge and admitting my failure was humbling and acutely painful. But because of that test, I shifted from atheism to faith. Thereafter, the Spirit guided me to the gospel. 

Shift as Season Change

He changes times and seasons; he deposes kings and raises up others. He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to the discerning. Daniel 2:21 NIV

Daniel 2:21 is part of his prayer of praise to God, after He revealed King Nebuchadnezzar’s secret dream. What does this dream signify? God controls time and events; He has the power to empower or depose rulers; all true understanding comes directly from God.

After I retired from teaching in the third season of life fifteen years ago, I started writing. I wrote to think; I wrote to practice, I wrote to hold my feet to the fire. Mostly, I read and write and pray and seek wisdom. My faith journey, Wisdom Builds Her House, is the fruit of my third season identity shift. 

When God shifts Keith and me into our fourth and final season of life, these words from  Psalm 102:25-27 NIV will be in our hearts and minds: In the beginning you laid the foundations of the earth, and the heavens are the work of your hands. They will perish, but you remain; they will all wear out like a garment. Like clothing you will change them and they will be discarded. But you remain the same, and your years will never end.

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“We can afford that,” Keith said when I asked him about possibly having to re-drill the wells for our geothermal system. Afford as in bearing the cost. With the drought, one of the wells seems to have gone dry. 

The deep well that provides water to the house is at the bottom of the ravine below; we’ve never run out of water, even in the driest of times. But the two geothermal wells were drilled at the higher elevation, out from the garage at the driveway pullout above the ravine. The closed-loop pipes that feed into the garage utility room are buried in the hill above the driveway.

Keith continued, “What we cannot afford is equipment that doesn’t heat or cool efficiently.” Afford as in counting the cost. More to the point—especially when it comes to faith—we cannot to afford to live without God’s afford, He who gives forth naturally from His creation and provides protection and helpers.

What we can afford

But if he cannot afford a lamb, then he shall bring to the Lord as his compensation for the sin that he has committed two turtledoves or two pigeons, one for a sin offering and the other for a burnt offering. Leviticus 5:7 ESV

God knew that not all of the Israelites could afford the required sin offerings. So, He made a fair way for poor people to afford substitutes in asking for forgiveness. This we learn from Leviticus 5:7, which also tells us about God’s nature: He is fair. Every person in the community matters to Him, regardless of the amount of money they have. 

We can mirror God’s fairness in our offerings, doing what we can afford to do for others. For instance, during fellowship time between church and Bible study or Sunday School, we enjoy treats provided by members of the congregation. Cookies, brownies, coffee cakes, sweet breads, cupcakes, crackers and cheese, fruit, and the like. 

Because some people need gluten free, I often bake goods accordingly. But gluten free flour is expensive, as are the rest of the provisions. Not everyone can afford more than their weekly groceries. Thanks be to God, Keith and I are among those who can. We sign up when there are several open spots—summer vacation time, for instance—while making sure others have the opportunity to share in the giving. 

What we cannot afford

For which of you, desiring to build a tower, does not first sit down and count the cost, whether he has enough to complete it? Luke 14:28 ESV

From the picture, you might have noticed that I didn’t sign up for next Sunday, even though that spot was blank. I have a commitment on Saturday, which means I cannot afford the hours it will take to bake for Sunday morning. Time – the cost I must count before signing up, so I can finish the job without compromising other commitments, to rest and to Keith. Although I love the feeling of helping others, I must acknowledge trade-offs of time for myself and my intimate relationships. Priorities: Mission third, Family second, Faith first.

In Luke 14:28, Jesus admonishes his followers to think carefully before they commit to a life of faith. His free food and miracles are very attractive, but faith is not an easy path. There are sacrifices, not just financial or time but personal. Count the cost, He says, be realistic about this choice and the hard times that will come. Being a follower of Jesus means putting Him above all else, including your family and your life. 

That said, our relationship with God is one we absolutely cannot afford to lose. As Martin Luther stated when facing Holy Roman Emperor Charles V at the Diet of Worms in 1521, “Unless I am convinced by the testimony of the Scriptures or by clear reason… I am bound by the Scriptures I have quoted and my conscience is captive to the Word of God. I cannot and will not recant anything, since it is neither safe nor right to go against conscience.” He could not afford to risk his relationship with God, the provisions, protections, and promises He affords. 

And neither can we.

God’s afford

For as the earth brings forth its sprouts, and as a garden causes what is sown in it to sprout up, so the Lord God will cause righteousness and praise to sprout up before all the nations. Isaiah 61:11 ESV

God’s afford has little to do with finances or cost, because His afford is about giving forth, providing opportunity, making available. God affords the sun to warm the earth, rain for water, and both to feed us, like Jesus feeding the 5,000. 

Isaiah 61:11 states that God will surely make righteousness and praise grow for all the world to see. Here the metaphors point to natural growth, the earth and garden. God’s afford cannot be stopped, including the growth in His people, the broken or hurt, all the nations, the entire world, everyone. Doxology: Praise God from Whom all blessings flow. 

God’s afford of growth can take time. Months of rain and sun before harvest, years of prayer. Yet we are assured of His promise to bring justice and joy. 

Perhaps His afford will replenish water to our geothermal well, so Keith and I will be able to afford the cost of Kingdom-building projects for others. Mirroring Jesus, feeding the hungry, providing food for fellowship.

Digging deeper wells.

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A phase is part of a cycle or course of development, as seen in Scripture, ourselves, and in the vegetation surrounding us. 

Remember the story about the cherry seeds that germinated in planters we kept on our deck in Alexandria and transplanted here at Vanaprastha? Now two large, native black cherry trees grow tall and wide on the north side of our meadow. Every spring, they send out green leaves followed by a profusion of white, dangling, lace-like blossoms then small red and black cherries in the summer and into the fall, for as long as they last. 

Growth, flower, fruit or seed. Like the fungi that mysteriously support life, as Merlin Sheldrake shows in Entangled Life: How Fungi Make our Worlds. Ecclesiastes 3:1 states: There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens. Time, season, stage, phase. Maturation, most of which happens internally.

A Growth Phase

So neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow. 1 Corinthians 3:7 NIV

During the growth phase, a plant focuses energy on growing taller, stronger stems and producing a profusion of green leaves using sunlight and water. But growth never happens alone. As with the fungi’s network of underground hyphae (HY fee) that tangle into mycelium, God directs the flow of water and nutrients to trees and shrubs—as to us.

In 1 Corinthians 3:7, Paul compares plant growth to spiritual work. The planting and watering work we do is nothing without God. Only He has the power to create the life-giving change, something I learned after turning away from atheism at age forty.

Until then, I was a child, an immature rebellious adolescent masquerading as an adult. Planted from my parents’ seeds, fed and watered, I grew physically but not spiritually. Thus, I remained stuck in the first phase, aging and feeling lonely while the seasons changed and life moved on to its inevitable conclusion. But after making the painful growth shift necessary in becoming a believer, I flourished and blossomed. I embraced the next phase, despite the shadow of death—or perhaps because of the fact that life on earth is mortal.

A Flower Phase

The life of mortals is like grass, they flourish like a flower of the field; the wind blows over it and it is gone, and its place remembers it no more. Psalm 103:15-16 NIV

In the short flowering phase, small buds form and open into flowers, which are needed to make new seeds. Psalm 103:15-16 states that life is fragile and temporary; human life doesn’t last long. Like the grasses in our meadow and wildflowers that fade quickly, people decline then vanish from the earth when the wind blows. But fear not: God’s endless love prevails forever. 

How grateful I am for the flourishing and flowering I’ve experienced in my life as a believer. Never alone, never lonely, following His path, doing His will, like fungi, most of which is underground, unseen. All for His glory. I don’t worry about the future, because I trust His promises. What matters is the present, the Kingdom work He sets before me every moment of every day. This is the essential work of the flowering phase.

A Fruit or Seed Phase

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Galatians 5:22-23 NIV

During the fruit and seed phase, flowers turn into fruit or pods holding mature seeds. What is this spiritual fruit, according to Paul in Galatians 5:22-23? Love, that deep caring for others without expecting anything in return. Joy, the happy heart that comes from God. Peace, the quiet mind when life is hard. And of course, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Then Paul says, those who live by the fruit of the Spirit break no rules. This is the gospel, the good news that we believers are directed to spread, like seeds dropped or scattered to restart the cycle, returning to the germinating seed’s growth phase until we die.

Sometimes we get to witness the fruit of our efforts, as I did this past week when a former student posted on social media her thanks for my teaching. Even though I was not a believer when I taught her, I know now that I was guided in that mission from the beginning. For, as the apostle John records Jesus speaking in chapter 15 verse 5: “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.” Apart from Him, even in the first phase, I could have done nothing.

What phase are you in?

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Today, the route to meaning, through the wilderness, to the cross. Thanks be to God.

The Route to Meaning 

For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. Ephesians 2:10 NIV

Paul writes in Ephesians 2:10 that we believers are God’s handiwork, created anew in Christ Jesus to fulfill the good works God planned for us intentionally and purposefully. We are not accidents; our daily tasks and interactions matter. Each step along the route of our lives, we get to honor God through our thoughts, words, and actions. 

As a twenty-one-year-old atheist, I found my route to meaning in teaching. Only after becoming a believer was I able to see the obvious hand of God in that calling event and later in my third-season-of-life calling as a writer. Living out my callings means doing the work, serving others, celebrating success and owning up to failure.

There are three routes to meaning, stated psychologist Viktor Frankl: through the completion of tasks, caring for others, or facing suffering with dignity. Although Frankl did not address faith, his ideas guide one along the route that is profoundly different from the “I.” Case in point: Frankl’s fellow prisoners in the WWII concentration camps, those who did not choose the route to meaning, gave up and died. Believers know that up until the moment of death, there is still time for the “I” to course correct or not, as with the two thieves hanging on either side of Jesus.

The Route through the Wilderness

Then we turned back and set out toward the wilderness along the route to the Red Sea, as the Lord had directed me. For a long time we made our way around the hill country of Seir. Deuteronomy 2:1 NIV

Deuteronomy 2:1 describes a decisive moment of God’s judgment due to disobedience: out of fear and lack of faith, the Israelites had refused to enter Canaan. Thus, God directed them away from the Promised Land back into the desert along the route to the Red Sea. They wandered this wilderness, circling the hill country of Mount Seir, for many years. 

The route through the wilderness is not arbitrary but rather a path for testing, a place where God refines us for his purposes. As Bible study author Sharla Fritz states in God’s Relentless Love: “…when we experience ‘wilderness’ times in our lives, may we see them as opportunities to grow in our relationship with the One who loves us deeply.”

During my wilderness periods, as a forty-year-old newly-divorced woman searching for God and a sixty-year-old retiree searching for Jesus, I endured great emotional suffering, until God deemed me ready to move forward. Although the “I” hates to suffer, the believer thanks God for those growth opportunities.

The Route to the Cross

Near the cross of Jesus stood his mother, his mother’s sister, Mary the wife of Clopas, and Mary Magdalene. John 19:25 NIV

John 19:25 lists the loyal and courageous women who stood near Jesus during his crucifixion: his mother Mary, her sister, Mary (wife of Clopas), and Mary Magdalene. Scripture does not say if Mary the mother of Jesus followed Him along the route to the cross, but she was there, at His feet. Such was her devotion to her son. 

She knew how arduous that route was for Him. She also knew His care for her, as the verses that follow state. When Jesus saw his mother there, and the disciple whom he loved standing nearby, he said to her, “Woman, here is your son,” and to the disciple, “Here is your mother.” From that time on, this disciple took her into his home. Even while suffering unspeakable agony, Jesus demonstrated His love for others by preparing for His mother’s care. This is love.

The route to the cross is an arduous journey, a dying to that selfish “I,” a wandering path through the wilderness, and the most meaningful decision I make every moment of every day.

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Short means brief in time, or lacking an adequate amount, or short in length, distance, height or stature. All three meanings appear in Scripture.

Short in Stature

He wanted to see who Jesus was, but because he was short he could not see over the crowd. Luke 19:3 NIV

Zacchaeus was curious but couldn’t see Jesus because he was short in stature. So, he ran ahead and climbed a sycamore-fig tree to get a better view. Zacchaeus was a wealthy tax collector in Jericho and much despised because he extorted money and worked for the Romans. Despite his short stature and his community’s hatred for him—or maybe because of one or both—Jesus looked up when he reached the tree, called Zacchaeus by name, and announced that He would stay at his house that night. The people were shocked. Why would Jesus associate with a sinner, a tax collector, an extortionist? 

Because Zacchaeus’s heart changed. He repented and said he would make restitution, giving half his possessions to the poor and repaying four times over to those he had cheated. His turn toward Jesus saved him and his household. 

Salvation, which began with the blessing of being short.

Falling Short

for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, Romans 3:23 NIV

Being short is quite different from falling short, the biggest of which was Adam and Eve’s. Upon their short-fall, sin became universal without exemption. All of us violate God’s moral law—His perfection, His divine standard, His glory—through our thoughts, words, or deeds. All the time.

Until I came to faith, I didn’t believe in sin, at least not mine. I wasn’t perfect, of course, but wanted to be, so I hid my imperfections as best I could. For me, falling short was more like making a mistake, but sinning was something else entirely. Me, a sinner? Nope, not me. I’m good and right and strong—even though I didn’t feel that way. Because all means all, and that includes Paul and me and everyone. We continually miss the mark. Part of me always knew that, and by trying to hide my imperfections, I ran into sin again and again. Part of me knew that, too.

Thank goodness for the truth Paul writes in the next verse: and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. Now I know where to take my brokenness whenever I fall short. Which is all the time.

Time is short

What I mean, brothers and sisters, is that the time is short. 1 Corinthians 7:29a NIV

Paul believed that earthly time was short because Christ’s second coming was imminent. Maybe according to God’s timing, which is different from ours, it was and is imminent. In any case, our eyes need to be on God, because our time on earth is short.

In childhood, the first season of life, days and years seem long. But in the second, wage-earning/householder, summer season, which our accountant was experiencing, the days seem long and the years short. Then in the third season of life—autumn, harvesttime, Vanaprastha—both days and years seem short. I imagine that perception will continue into our fourth and final season. 

Regardless of our perception of time, the brevity of human existence is a theological truth and recurrent biblical theme. As James writes in 4:14: Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.

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“Outcome” in the New Testament is often translated from the Greek telos, an end or a goal, or ekbasis, a way out or result.Outcome, something that follows as a result or consequence. Sometimes due to our behavior, sometimes not, sometimes surprising, sometimes mysterious.

A positive outcome

But now having been freed from sin and enslaved to God, you derive your benefit, resulting in sanctification, and the outcome, eternal life. Romans 6:22 NASB

Here’s the last picture I have of my mother, with me, my daughter, granddaughter, and elder sister. Six weeks later, Mother passed away at the age of 96. All of us die, without exception, so our life decisions matter, the most important of which is faith.

Romans 6:22 is part of a Paul’s discussion of two different lifestyles: serving sin, which leads to shame and death, or dedicating one’s life to God, which leads to sanctification, holiness. Two forms of enslavement. Those freed from sin become servants of Jesus Christ, like Paul. And that leads to the ultimate outcome of eternal life. 

Choosing faith and trusting in Christ has an incredibly positive outcome. We are changed into people who are bound to righteousness, inwardly and outwardly, more like Christ. Although not there yet, we are on our way to that goal.

A negative outcome

For it is time for judgment to begin with God’s household; and if it begins with us, what will the outcome be for those who do not obey the gospel of God? 1 Peter 4:17 NIV

Children who grew up in the 80s and 90s participated in self-esteem programs at school. According to Jean M. Twenge, Ph.D. author of the book Generation Me, the result of all these programs was zero, no impact, nothing. Except Gen Me’s have a harder time with criticism, and as young adults suffer higher rates of anxiety, loneliness, and depression. A negative outcome.

Twenge did not discuss the curriculum specifically, but if my daughter’s fifth-grade self-esteem education was representative, it’s no wonder the personal responsibility message got flipped. To Me’s, self-esteem is who you are innately, not what you do, and it’s not your fault when things don’t work out. Unsurprisingly, the desired “feel good about yourself” didn’t pan out either. Did you notice that there was no mention of being a child of God and made in His image, no mention of trials and suffering, only self-regard?

It wasn’t until I became a believer that I learned to see trials and suffering as a way for God to refine my faith. Peter writes in his first letter, chapter 4, verse 17, about the negative outcome for those who do not follow the gospel. Judgment begins with the church, he says, God’s household. We should welcome that which purges sin and fosters obedience. God holds His children to high standards and lovingly corrects those who belong to Him, as parents with children. Because the ultimate negative outcome for those who disobey and esteem only themselves is terrifying.

Consider the outcome

Remember your leaders, who spoke the word of God to you. Consider the outcome of their way of life and imitate their faith. Hebrews 13:7 NIV

After Keith and I moved to Vanaprastha permanently, in the fall of 2012, we visited churches and eventually settled on Bethany Lutheran Church in the Shenandoah Valley. Our decision was based on several factors: the welcoming community, the emphasis on Bible study and spiritual growth, and the leadership, the pastor in particular. He and his family are models for living out the gospel, as we all are encouraged to be and do.

In Hebrews 13:7, the author tells Christians to remember, reflect upon, and imitate the faithful, to honor their spiritual leaders, mentors, pastors, and teachers, especially those who have endured hardships, as our pastor’s family has. Role models can be found both in the present and the past, those in the early church as recorded in the New Testament. “Consider the outcome of their way of life and imitate their faith,” their steadfastness, devotion and trust in God, courage in their daily walks with Jesus, even to the point of death.

Our trust is not in human leaders, who come and go, and eventually die. Our trust is in Jesus Christ, who was and is and will be forever. Consider the outcome of faith, I say to myself, while placing the positive or negative outcomes of medical tests at His feet.

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